Hi to everybody...do you ever get days when you become acutely over-sensitive about everything...I've been walking around for the last two or three days bawling at hubby when he's done nothing wrong and is just being his normal self, but I keep biting his head off...I want to calm down but can't seem to do so...I'm sleeping well, I'm try to be relaxed when awake, but I'm also on edge as well because I've been buying some things on ebay for the first time in the auction part and it's so stressful because went on for four days and ended yesterday night successfully but it exhausted me...I've won three of the items and lost one, which was completely my own fault because I got totally confused over what I was bidding on, and was warned I was in danger of losing it and let it go at the very last minute...it really annoyed me and I've been growling around the house ever since...that happened on the 29th October, so fits in with my change of mood...then hubby bought me a Yamaha digital keyboard for Christmas two days ago which I'm in love with as I've always wanted to learn to play the piano, and this is just out of this world 
Now I'm nervous about not being able to get it right...give me strength! When am I going stop doubting myself?
I don't know whether it's because winter's drawing near, and whether this mood change is just part and parcel of the changing weather and dark evenings, which I loathe, but I don't like being so scratchy and touchy...sounds like the Simpsons' cartoon characters 
Okay, that's it...I've got a suspicion that it might also be that I've been buying a few things recently way above and beyond what I might have bought last year, and am getting a bit anxious that I'm replacing ciggies with shopping, which is really not something I want to do at all...very, very, big smack hand if I am...think I may have a bit of an addictive personality...well for a time anyway, then suddenly I stop...hmmmm...what can I replace shopping with I ask myself...any suggestions...not rude ones please HLOL...
Big hugs to one and all...
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- 01.11.2007 @ 17:32:47
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jenray
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- 01.11.2007 @ 18:19:13
Just not sure what it is but it does come on each year so maybe it is a bit of SAD starting, but could be just the idea of winter coming on, which I've never liked...love the sun so cold is never welcome, there again it could just be guilt over spending money on me...always hard for me to spend money on myself
...hugs to you too, and nearly time to meet...XXX-
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- 01.11.2007 @ 19:00:39
It is difficult to change years of habits but I believe you are worth every penny or in UK talk, pence or pound, that you spend.
I am soooo looking forward to meeting you and giving you hugs and kisses.
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jenray
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- 01.11.2007 @ 19:05:51
HLOL I'll keep telling myself that...hubby says so too, but have always had difficulty doing it...love buying things for other people but for me, that's a different matter...think hubby tells me that all the time because he loves buying cds and books for himself all the time...in whispered voice HLOL...big hugs and XXX
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- 01.11.2007 @ 19:15:50
It's not called 'the menopause' is it , I guess not , It sounds like your husband understands and accepts you as well as loves and respects you , and , I would'nt get too obsessively competitive re. ebay if I were you ; 'what goes around comes around' so there'll always be other chances .
The best way to try to conquer cravings is probably through anything you can engross yourself into that's harmless and hopefully positively constructive such as art or even housework or of course books , films etc . ,
have a lovely evening , hugs , ~ martin .
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jenray
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- 01.11.2007 @ 19:43:01
I shouldn't think so, Martin HLOL...bit past the menopause now...and yes, I won't get too addicted to ebay auctions...hate the stress so don't like giving myself grief...was just a one off...and my shopping isn't a craving at all, just a bit above average for me
Somebody else with a real craving would laugh me out of the room if I said I had one Thanks though for your thoughts and hugs, big ones back to you XX -
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philghodg
- 01.11.2007 @ 20:06:00
Have confidence in yourself hun. We have. I am going to try and post something which I want you to practice for me on your keyboard (is that not something you can replace your shopping with?.
And then I am going to get back down to some serious writing. Yep, my novel calls-
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jenray
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- 01.11.2007 @ 23:09:29
It ain't easy when you've been really and truly invisible for all of your life...I can be absolutely outrageous and nobody takes a blind bit of notice...maybe a tut or two then forget all about it...I shall look forward to practising whatever you send me, but first I've got to learn to read music, and that isn't so easy...I know the keyboard is basically divided up into seven sets of seven I think that's it...or is five lots of seven...see lots to learn still
And best of luck with your novel...you must finish it...how can you leave it...when I write one I have to write it from beginning to end because the story needs to be written...I'll stop now because I think I've got keyboard diarrhoea....big hugs..LOL...-
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philghodg
- 02.11.2007 @ 08:39:22
I know. It is a discipline thing. So much life happening around me (Work, Kids, Mrs H's Ofsted)! But got some more done last night so back in the groove
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joebangles
- 01.11.2007 @ 20:55:47
Come on jen, you are tougher than you think, I've read your posts, I'm sure that it's just called, life, it sucks some times and usually there is some thing good just around the corner.
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jenray
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- 01.11.2007 @ 23:14:21
Why does everybody think I'm tough?
I've had that said to me all through my life as well...I think it's because I just don't know how to give up...and yes, I know there's possibly good things round the corner, but just sometimes I feel not so tough...and sort of blue for no reason...and thanks a million for the big cuddle...it's probably because damn Christmas is coming, and I really really really don't like Christmas...big hugs to you and XXX -
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sallyontour
Pro - 02.11.2007 @ 16:48:37
Don't stress! The best way to learn piano is to keep nice and loose about it, relax and enjoy the process. If you make a mistake then, hey, welcome to the real world! Nobody ever just sat down and played perfect piano, it takes years of study, but when you get your first piece right you will be so proud of yourself! The main thing is to have fun. As for reading music, if you can count and know your alphabet up to G you will be just fine.
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jenray
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- 02.11.2007 @ 17:05:33
Thanks, Sally...I know, it's just a bit awesome at the mo...can tinkle away and create quite pretty tunes intuitively, but nothing else yet...still waiting for stand to arrive so I can actually put it somewhere...hard to believe we've nowhere to put it at the mo Big hugs...-
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sallyontour
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- 04.11.2007 @ 20:05:03
you have an ironing board dontcha? ;-)
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jenray
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- 04.11.2007 @ 20:30:39
We do, but it's too high and besides that would look really good - an ironing board standing in the bedroom permanently - no, getting a stand in the next day or two so no hassle...will wait until then...also ironing board's buried...both of us hate ironing so rarely ever do it...most of our things dry fairly uncreased so don't worry about it...LOL...life's too darned short for ironing any more...big hugs
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- 03.11.2007 @ 12:17:15
Dropping by for a coffee. How brave you are! I haven't dared to try ebay, but that's one of my "double dare-yah" things I plan to try this winter.
Music for your world - painting your heaven on earth. How fabulous is that!
The Sun is in Scorpio. That's why the deepening moods. It'll change on Nov. 22nd when the Sun moves into Sagittarius.
Say did BluMoon connect with you? She also is an artist and I thought it might be interesting for you two to connect. Have an awesome day.
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jenray
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- 03.11.2007 @ 18:42:21
Trying to translate this, moonwoman, HLOL...and ebay's not really scary just stressful if you're bidding for something, and might lose it...would rather buy outright if the offer's there...and no, didn't meet BluMoon...as I've only just seen this, hope you had a great day...been another beautiful sunny one here and for the first time for a very long time, it looks like the Bonfire celebrations this year are going to be in the dry...big hugs...
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Yes. I go through moments like that more often than I care to admit. I have an addictive personality. I can never do anything just a little bit (unless it is a nasty chore) but it is either all or nothing with me.
I am positive I suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder and when it gets dark and cold, so do I (dark and grumpy).
Huge hugs to you my sweet friend.